Sometimes i just want to pack my bags and go somewhere far...and when i mean far i mean far. Somewhere out of the states and into another time zone. Somewhere i dont see a lot of my own people. How does Rome, Greece, Paris, Italy sound? I have no money to do that on my own, but a part of me just wants to leave anyways because when i get there, i will somehow find a way to make it through. I feel like i'm missing out on an experience that only comes once in your life. Cause as you get older...the more of that experience you slowly but surely miss out on. Im turning 21 in January...i feel like ive accomplished nothing, and the only thing ive accomplished is the fact that i can pay my bills on time. So many questions i ask myself these days only come back with one answear..."i dont know". Im tired of doing the same thing over and over again..i want fresh air to breathe and new friends to play with...different faces to encounter. Theres a whole world out there and i feel like its calling my name and waiting for me to hop on the next plane to somewhere and just leaveeeee! Maybe ive been watching too many movies..maybe im going crazy...but i want a story to tell, i want to able to say that ive been somewhere totally out of my element and had a wonderful time. I want to go to England and make friends with british accents and i want to go to Paris and kiss someone under the eiffel tower(ok that was cheesy but still a girl can dream), i want to go to Italy and have the best italian food at the crumiest italian restaurant...i want OUT of california. Im i missing out on life??
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I think that if you really want to go--you should go. I know that I always say that I want you to stay and never leave, but I'm kidding you know that right? hahaah
I also know that you've accomplished so much more--at least more than me! You have been working at the same place for a long time and you've created stability there. You are leading a small group and you are influencing their lives and molding those girls into women of God.
Maybe life feels routine, I understand you--I wonder sometimes if I have grown tired of my weekly schedule--but I know that your life will become so much more exciting soon!
I just re-read everything and I feel like I'm being really cliche on everything I've said so far, but really I mean what I've said so far (I'm not good at expressing myself through words haha)
Don't be too hard on yourself and go explore your surroundings! :) Maybe DT Girls reunion soon?!?! :)
BTW. READ ERIC's BLOG TITLED "PARADIGMS...etc"
its really good i think it might answer your question ahah
Ashley! AH, I think I know what you mean! haha. I felt like that so much this past summer. I couldn't stop telling myself, "there MUST be more to life than what I'm doing right now..." I can so see you traveling around :) You should give it a go! hehe. Man, I'm sad that I don't see you as much these days though :(
hi. let's go somewhere together :) just wait until i turn 21. oh wait, i'm korean u probably don't wanna go with me.. :(
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