Uh-ohhh I think i'm addicted

No im not addicted to drugs, but addicted to buying things all the time. I get bored, i ask myself what i could possibly do to make time go by a little faster. Two things come to my mind usually..A) rent a movie and just vegggg out or B) go to the mall and just "eye shop" or go to Target and buy something "useful". I usually choose option B.. if i decide to go to target i make a checklist on things that i might need in the future..for example i may not need shampoo at the moment but it doesnt hurt buying some so you wont have to worry about it later... for some odd reason..i dont have to buy clothes or shoes to make me happy..buying shampoos, toothbruth, body wash, bday cards, random things at target satisfy my shopper needs just as much as if i went to mall and bought a new outfit. Although i dont need it..i just buy it..cause it makes me happy. Spending money on things make me happy. Im not even rich..that is the downfall. When im sad... i buy things to make me happy. Honestly, i cant help myslef. My reasoning behind this.. i'll pay it off..or im going to use it always..or i need it just because. If not target, then the mall.. my worst enemy but also my best friend...retail credit cards. I love Nordstrom... but worst thing to have... Nordstrom credit card. I go into Nordy and i see something i like...i have a war with my thoughts..to buy or not to buy...i usually fail miserably but i try to keep it within the budget but even then i shouldnt be buying anything. Another store i cant go home without visiting..Victoria's Secret..and i too have a credit card from them as well..im not even going go into detail how stuff i bought from there. I feel soooo weird leaving the mall without having bought anything...so i go looking for something to buy..nothing too expensive..maybe a shirt.. or makeup... thats my awful disease. I really need to stop........... my friend is having a bday dinner..and i have plenty of dresses at home..but i used her bday as an excuse to go buy another one... loving the dress..hating myself. I even thought about buying new heels to go with the dress.... wth is wrong with me??! Happy when i feel the shopping bags in my hand... super regrettful when i see my bills-___- I promise im not that much into debt...but i could have saved myself a couple hundred dollars worth of debt. I blame the stressful life i have to live. Stress = unhappy ashley = going out and about = target or mall = eye shopping = buying something "useful" = coming home happy = credit card bill = ohhhh effff = stress = same cycle.