Thursday, April 29, 2010
White Flag.
I sit here, in my chair, surrounded by pages and pages of organic chemistry notes. I have a test at 12pm that covers 8 chapters and some of the chapters i had to teach myself. I can honestly say that i think/want to give up right about now. I feel like i have reached the end of the road and whatever happens..happens. I either need to jump off and trust in the Lord, or turn around and retrace my steps. But, i much rather jump off and let the Lord catch me. I've been struggling with my thoughts for too long now. I always seem to figure out the solution with my own willpower, and never leave it up to the Lord. God, I'm having such a hard time, and i trust that you will take care of me....right? I am so stressed ive been having scary dreams, sleep doesnt feel like sleep, i cant remeber the last time i got in a goodnights rest, everything i eat doesnt taste good and my digestive system doesnt seem to agree with it either. I feel so hopeless right now and it really kills me and my pride to know that i havent been able to keep my end of the bargain as a student and fufill all my studies. Do i give up to easily? But theres a point in your studies when you have reached your maximum potential and you know it. Everything you read stopped making sense and your non-existant A.D.D seems to kick in. I feel like a failure right now. Why does chem have to be so hard for me? Maybe nursing isnt for me?...
2 comments:
omg i've been having the same doubts these days! i was just depressed about life, and unhappy with where i was academically.
but people kept telling me....try your best until the VERY END. do everything you can. don't give up early because you're scared, or else you'll never know.
YOU CAN DO IT! Don't be scared bc God will catch you. You just do your part and try till the very end. (:
Do not be anxious about anything, but in everything, by prayer and petition with thanksgiving present your requests to God. And the peace of God, which transcends all understanding, will guard your hearts and minds in Christ Jesus. -Philippians 4:6-7
"Therefore I tell you, do not worry about your life, what you will eat or drink; or about your body, what you will wear. Is not life more important than food, and the body more important than clothes? Look at the birds of the air; they do not sow or reap or store away in barns, and yet your heavenly Father feeds them. Are you not much more valuable than they? Who of you by worrying can add a single hour to his life?........
So do not worry, saying, 'What shall we eat?' or 'What shall we drink?' or 'What shall we wear?' For the pagans run after all these things, and your heavenly Father knows that you need them.
"But seek first his kingdom and his righteousness, and all these things will be given to you as well.Therefore do not worry about tomorrow, for tomorrow will worry about itself. Each day has enough trouble of its own."
Matthew 6: 25-34
I hope these are encouraging!
Pray for peace and understanding in your heart for the material. AND pray before you study. HELPS a lot :)
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