Words cannot explain.

I was asked this question not to long ago "Why do you want to be a nurse so much." And to be quite honest, i just cant explain it. Theres this feeling inside me that just feels so right when i think about nursing. I couldnt be more happier when i'm able to help people who are sick or hurt around me. It brings me such joy to my heart when im able to do that. Even if its a simple task to just give them medicine or patch them up after a bad fall, its something that i really enjoy doing. Please get hurt around me, i promise to take great care of you. I love it when my family members get sick, the feeling of getting them wet cloth so i can help wash their face, or bringing them something to eat, or pricking their fingers so blood circulation works better(its a korean thing). Or even clipping their nails because their vision is not so good anymore! I especially love going to my grandma's house and helping her go through her day. I love to help her bathe, and scrub her back for her, wash her hair for her, and help her dry off and get into clean clothes. I know she's capable of doing it on her own, but the fact that im able to help her with it to make it that much easier for her makes my day. I love driving her places so she doesnt have to take the bus everywhere, i love helping her get in the car and helping her put her seatbelt on. If someone was to ask what i was most passionate about, i would have to say the ability to take care of someone. Taking care of people is really fun for me, it makes me really happy, and to see that their ok because i helped them is the greatest feeling in the world, and no amount of right words can express this feeling of mine. Isnt that what nursing should be about? Its really not about the money or the awesome benefits you get. It seriously angers me when people only go into nursing because the pays is good and the hours are good. Why?! It has no meaning then, your not doing it out of love but your doing it out of selfish reasons! Patients need someone who's going to take care of them because you really care! I dont plan to have a shallow relationship with my patients. I really want to get deep with them on another personal level. I truely believe God has placed me in this major. It just feels so right, and i know the hospital will be my mission field. When i daydream about my future, God places this vision in my head without a fail. I vision me going to each patient of mine and sharing God's love and his word. Honestly, money doesnt mean anything to me, even if the pay was horrible i cant see myself doing anything else. This vision brings much joy to my heart, just being able to share the word on a daily basis with different types of people is sufficient enough for me and i really hope that God will really use me and work thru me. Hard part is getting there, but God will surely provide.