Wednesday, June 1, 2011
Many blessings
I got a letter in the mail yesterday from USC denying my acceptance. I was sad, actually I was a little more than sad. Even though a part of me was crushed, I had no doubt in my mind that I was going to be okay and that God was behind everything. If I got into USC I was willing to come out of undergrad with debt, although I couldn't help feel overwhelmed with the idea of having to pay back loads and loads of money upon finishing school. I think God knew what was best for me even though I tried to ignore that one feeling where you know what the right thing to do is but yet you just ignore it. From the moment I got the full ride to the CSULB, I knew that somehow I would go there. So for me to have gotten in USC would have been somewhat of more stress for me. It's just that sometimes when you want something so bad you kind of ignore everything around you, even if the best route is going the other way. CSULB is a free ride, closer to my house, and let me say this again, it's FREE! And yet I knew what the best path was for me, but I ignored it and in the end got my hopes up. WHATEVER dude, yah it sucks but too freaking bad. I've been blessed so much already and I just need to be thankful for what I've been given. I got into 4/5 schools that I've applied to and been given full rides to 3 of them, and I dont think a lot of people can say the same thing for themselves. I am really really thankful for the blessings HE has given me and I plan to be the best student possible at CSULB. Adios community college, you will not be missed.
Friday, April 29, 2011
Life.
Oh man, it's been a while, yes I know. Here's what has been going on in my LIFE. I changed my major to Communications. No it wasn't just a random change, I always had a thing for communications; and I kept it in the back of my head just in case nursing wouldn't work out for me. I mean, c'mon, I was made for communications. My social skills are superb and I actually enjoy public speaking. Easy breezy.
As soon as I decided my major change I started applying to schools; since obviously I've been at a CC for quite some time now I was more than eligible to transfer. In fact, I wont just be transferring empty handed but I will actually be leaving with me AA. It's not much but I least I'm getting something out my years spent at a CC. I've applied to CSULA, CSULB, Cal poly Pomona, Chapman and USC. I've got into all the Cal States I've applied to and now waiting for Chapman and USC's response. Waiting was never my best trait and it still isn't. This change was so important for me. I went from worrying about never being able to get into any schools to having numerous schools wanting me to be a part of their student body. I went from constantly worrying about not being able to get into any schools because of my nursing grades to worrying about which school I school attend this fall from the choices that I have been given. As the semester progresses I realized more and more that science wasn't for me. I never really got the best science grades, in fact I got the worst. But now as the semester is ending and professors let you know what you currently have in class; I realized that this was for me. I only have A's and B's this semester (mostly A's) and this just proves how much better off I am as a Comm major. Getting all those C's during my nursing period was a total mood killer and made me into one depressed student. I AM NOT A "C" STUDENT. That's just not who I am, I am an A/B student but never a C. My mood has gotten lighter, I am happier with myself, and I feel like I can succeed once again. Life will definitely throw rocks at you, but don't let it hit you and bring you down, just move to the side and carry on. The choices you make in life are so important, and the mistakes you make in life are just as important. But I think the most important thing you can get out of the choices and the mistakes you make in life are the decisions you make. You choose a path, life throws rocks at you, will you let it hit you and fall or will you stand up stronger and decide to carry on? I think I came to really understand what it means when people say "Gods plan is so much greater than what you have planned." So true.
As soon as I decided my major change I started applying to schools; since obviously I've been at a CC for quite some time now I was more than eligible to transfer. In fact, I wont just be transferring empty handed but I will actually be leaving with me AA. It's not much but I least I'm getting something out my years spent at a CC. I've applied to CSULA, CSULB, Cal poly Pomona, Chapman and USC. I've got into all the Cal States I've applied to and now waiting for Chapman and USC's response. Waiting was never my best trait and it still isn't. This change was so important for me. I went from worrying about never being able to get into any schools to having numerous schools wanting me to be a part of their student body. I went from constantly worrying about not being able to get into any schools because of my nursing grades to worrying about which school I school attend this fall from the choices that I have been given. As the semester progresses I realized more and more that science wasn't for me. I never really got the best science grades, in fact I got the worst. But now as the semester is ending and professors let you know what you currently have in class; I realized that this was for me. I only have A's and B's this semester (mostly A's) and this just proves how much better off I am as a Comm major. Getting all those C's during my nursing period was a total mood killer and made me into one depressed student. I AM NOT A "C" STUDENT. That's just not who I am, I am an A/B student but never a C. My mood has gotten lighter, I am happier with myself, and I feel like I can succeed once again. Life will definitely throw rocks at you, but don't let it hit you and bring you down, just move to the side and carry on. The choices you make in life are so important, and the mistakes you make in life are just as important. But I think the most important thing you can get out of the choices and the mistakes you make in life are the decisions you make. You choose a path, life throws rocks at you, will you let it hit you and fall or will you stand up stronger and decide to carry on? I think I came to really understand what it means when people say "Gods plan is so much greater than what you have planned." So true.
Sunday, February 13, 2011
No more.
I have something I must get off my chest. My focus is on the wrong thing. I constantly struggle with the idea of not having a boyfriend, and why guys don't like me. If they did, they never said. But NO MORE. I'm sick and tired of always thinking negative of myself because I dont have a bf. Screw that and screw you. Time to focus on more exercising, school, and becoming one with God again. My thoughts have drifted away from him to much. My mind has been consumed by too many narcissistic thoughts. It's time that I focus on Him and not on him. So this is my goodbye to the all the boys that I've secretly crushed on, to the silent heart breaks that I had, and to the boys that never had the balls to say anything. Good bye and farewell, I will accept when God gives. I'm staying single till God feels I'm ready and committing to it wholeheartedly. No more thoughts, just me and God. I was convicted that the time has come for me to grow up in this area, I'll be just fine.
Wednesday, February 2, 2011
Sunday, January 23, 2011
TRUAMATIZED FOR LIFE.
I had to look for a picture of myself for one of my classes and i went through my childhood album. Elementary all the way through senior year of high school. I just figured out why i didnt have a boyfriend back in those days. (wait, im so much better looking now, and yet...im still single-___-)
1)i was DARK....like frikin D.A.R.K
2) my fashion sense was non-existent. But funny thing is i actully remember telling myself how cute my clothes were..uhmm obviously i didnt know better.
3) i was sooo much skinnier back then...man, i was so taken aback on how much smaller my lady humps were. I need to get back to that stage.
4) my hair was a no no.
5) i should have used makeup at a young age cause that would have maybe helped with my appearance.
I AM SO DISAPPOINTED AT MY YOUNG SELF.
1)i was DARK....like frikin D.A.R.K
2) my fashion sense was non-existent. But funny thing is i actully remember telling myself how cute my clothes were..uhmm obviously i didnt know better.
3) i was sooo much skinnier back then...man, i was so taken aback on how much smaller my lady humps were. I need to get back to that stage.
4) my hair was a no no.
5) i should have used makeup at a young age cause that would have maybe helped with my appearance.
I AM SO DISAPPOINTED AT MY YOUNG SELF.
Friday, January 21, 2011
Last semester at a CC!
Yes, the day has finally come where i can say that i will not be going back to community college after this semester. This will be my last semester and also my first semester as a comm major at cypress college. Cypress college you have been good to me, but you will not be missed. I have officially been to the first day of every class for this semester. I love how they try to intimidate all the students on the first day of class saying how much work its gunna be and how hard its going to be. Little do they know that Ive been studying hardcore science for the past 2 years. I am not fazed by their intimidation tactics. I quietly laugh to myself and pretend to care for the rest of the class.
My 7:30 AM small group communications class, cant complain really, except for maybe the time. I got put into a group of 5 girls including me. We will work together as a group for the rest of the semester, they dont seem too bad. Professor said that if one group member is not contributing we can vote them out of the group. Nice.
My 9:30 AM Step aerobics class, not gunna lie...instructor is pretty dope. She's funny and quirky and guarantees results! Woah, a guaranteed workout! I'm excited to do some step aerobics, get my blood pressure and endorphins working in the morning. They say the best time to workout is in the morning, thats when you get the most results. I want that flat tummy, tighter ass, and hopefully less fat on my face! Be on the lookout ya'll!
My 12:30 PM ethnics class, i already know im going to hate it. Who cares about asian american studies??! I sure as hell dont. And why does she require so much damn writing?? I'm shooting for a 4.0 this semester, this class better not be the one thats holding me back.
My 11:00 AM Interpersonal Comm class, dont hate it, dont love it...yet. It doesnt seem that bad. She talks really loud when she doesnt have to, but i totally understand that cause i talk hella loud when i dont need too. She requires us to participate a lot...im down with that.
My 2:00 PM essentials of argumentation class...LOVE IT. The professor is such a G. So funny, and he cusses which makes everything so much more entertaining. Funny as hell and he has the craziest hair, but looks totally normal. Humor is like mine, which is obviously the best kind of humor duhhhh. Besides all the years of arguing with my sister, i got this in the bag.
Last semester....lets end it with a BANG! throw the DEUCES.
My 7:30 AM small group communications class, cant complain really, except for maybe the time. I got put into a group of 5 girls including me. We will work together as a group for the rest of the semester, they dont seem too bad. Professor said that if one group member is not contributing we can vote them out of the group. Nice.
My 9:30 AM Step aerobics class, not gunna lie...instructor is pretty dope. She's funny and quirky and guarantees results! Woah, a guaranteed workout! I'm excited to do some step aerobics, get my blood pressure and endorphins working in the morning. They say the best time to workout is in the morning, thats when you get the most results. I want that flat tummy, tighter ass, and hopefully less fat on my face! Be on the lookout ya'll!
My 12:30 PM ethnics class, i already know im going to hate it. Who cares about asian american studies??! I sure as hell dont. And why does she require so much damn writing?? I'm shooting for a 4.0 this semester, this class better not be the one thats holding me back.
My 11:00 AM Interpersonal Comm class, dont hate it, dont love it...yet. It doesnt seem that bad. She talks really loud when she doesnt have to, but i totally understand that cause i talk hella loud when i dont need too. She requires us to participate a lot...im down with that.
My 2:00 PM essentials of argumentation class...LOVE IT. The professor is such a G. So funny, and he cusses which makes everything so much more entertaining. Funny as hell and he has the craziest hair, but looks totally normal. Humor is like mine, which is obviously the best kind of humor duhhhh. Besides all the years of arguing with my sister, i got this in the bag.
Last semester....lets end it with a BANG! throw the DEUCES.
