Sunday, February 13, 2011
No more.
I have something I must get off my chest. My focus is on the wrong thing. I constantly struggle with the idea of not having a boyfriend, and why guys don't like me. If they did, they never said. But NO MORE. I'm sick and tired of always thinking negative of myself because I dont have a bf. Screw that and screw you. Time to focus on more exercising, school, and becoming one with God again. My thoughts have drifted away from him to much. My mind has been consumed by too many narcissistic thoughts. It's time that I focus on Him and not on him. So this is my goodbye to the all the boys that I've secretly crushed on, to the silent heart breaks that I had, and to the boys that never had the balls to say anything. Good bye and farewell, I will accept when God gives. I'm staying single till God feels I'm ready and committing to it wholeheartedly. No more thoughts, just me and God. I was convicted that the time has come for me to grow up in this area, I'll be just fine.
