Thanks.

On this Thanksgiving I give my Thanks to the wonderful people I have met. The friends that stuck through with me from beginning to end. The ones that heard me cry, laugh, seen me half naked, seen me dance like there's no tommorow, heard me sing my country music, endured my diva-ness, and all of the above. I thank God for providing me with my friends.

I thank God for the bumps in my life that he has given me. Truly, they are a blessing in disguise. Without these life bumps i would have never known what my mind was capable of. I would have never known that there was something more to my life than nursing and that i would be okay without it. I would have never known what it felt like to get a semester off of school ( i felt like a huge bum and i think Ive rested enough for quite some time). I learned that when one door closes, another one opens, and that in life you cant always get what you want. But that's okay, really its okay. I'm a stronger and more logical person now, and this kind of knowledge just doesn't come to you one sunny morning. Its the kind of knowledge that requires you to experience pain and heartache and it then rewards you with knowledge. I see myself with many more options and possibilities. I was made to bring change in this world, to help those in need, or any circumstances. I want to be that change, the light in someone's darkness, the laughter in someone's sadness. I learned that God has my back no matter what, and the world is now an endless gateway of possibilities.

I thank God for my family. My not so normal, out of this world family. My dad who still thinks he's 18 and cracks jokes like there's no tomorrow, who seemed to have finally matured into a man (well at least thats what my mom says). If there's one thing i'm going to apologize in advance for it's for my future boyfriend/husband. You will get picked on by my dad from the moment you step into my house, and if you are not able to handle it and joke back then....adios dude. My family is not your average korean family. For the woman of the house, my mom. She can handle everything and anything that comes her way. Strongest woman i know hands down, and has the most faith in me. I thank her for not being the typical korean mom, her trust in me has lead me this far. The support she has given me through all of this ordeal has been amazing. I'm most thankful for my grammy<3 The love of my life, if i was to ever love a man, i hope i love him like i love my grammy. The sweetest woman i know, most sacrificial, most unselfish, willing to endure pain so that no one else would be troubled by her. I cry everytime i think of my grammy, she is such a beautiful woman and i am so so so so sorry that i was such a horrible baby....always crying and demanding everything to be my way. Through it all, she has loved me ever so much, and for that, i can never repay her. ( i mean lets be real here ppl...how do you endure a cry frekin baby that cries all the damn time?? if i was my grammy i would have hated me....now that i think about it...i was born with my diva ways) haters gon hate.

I'm in love with a stripper.

Today's sermon was about being more practical. A practical Christian. A Christian that doesn't have to "pray" about everything before doing it. Such as comforting someone who is crying, or feeding the poor and hungry. And Pastor Dennis is right. Why do we stop and think about helping another human being in need? Shouldn't it be in our human nature to help and love others? Well Pastor Dennis ended the sermon with a challenge to go help someone in need.

Today at work, a girl came in crying with a big suitcase behind her. She ordered a hot chocolate with whip cream and continued to cry. With teary eyes she looks at me and says "Could you call me a cab, I've had a long day." I couldn't walk away without knowing she was going to be okay. I asked her "is everything alright?" and immediately she pours her heart out to me. I could tell she needed someone to talk to. She then proceeds to tell me that she left her boyfriend of 4 years, and she needs to go back home to her family in Nor cal. She continues to tell me that her boyfriend doesn't have a job, expects her to cook and clean, and she has to pay for everything. She continues to cry and tells me that she works at Vegas as a stripper during the weekend and that she has no one that she knows that lives in So cal. The sad part wasn't that she was stripper, but it was the fact that she had no shoulder to cry on while going through this ordeal with her boyfriend. Everybody needs a shoulder to cry on. How desperate was this girl to vent to someone, that she turned to a stranger for help?

My heart went out to her and so i told her to be strong and that she didn't deserve a guy that treated her like that. I told her she was worth more than that and that she shouldn't have to go through that crap. A man should always provide for the woman, and with that being said i told her good job for leaving him. When you got to go, you got to go, and it has been 4 years too long. I wanted to encourage her as much as possible, because i know leaving a guy that you invested for 4 years is hard to let go. We had a pow wow session and the cab came and i wished her Good luck and then she was gone.

So, i wish the girl the best in life. I hope she got to LAX safely, i hope she was able to find an opening on a flight to Nor cal, and i hope she finds a man worthy of her. Most of all, I hope my words were encouraging enough for her so that she can feel better about the situation and find love again. You go girl.

Day 3

DAY 3- a picture of you and your friends. (this i have many of)

Day 2

So far so good.....

Day 2 The meaning behind your Blogspot name.

I think A LOT. Like all day everyday. And i usually start off my stories with "so i've been thinking andddd....blah blah blah. Suits me just fine.

Day 1

Blog challenge, seems like fun. It originated with tumblr but whatevs...i do whateva i want. Hopefully i follow thru on it and not get lazy and just quit like on day 4. My blog never gets love from me, and i look back on my blog, and its like frkin serious and sappy and dark and depressing. Time to spice it up.

Day 1- A recent picture of you and 15 interesting facts about yourself


1) Addicted to Shopping. Mos def. my ultimate pick me up.
2) I own close to 30 pairs of shoes.
3) I like everything SPARKLY.
4) I'm in charge of my family's laundry, actually i choose to do it. It's therapeutic.
5)I love dogs, but im also quite allergic to them:(
6) I want to make a difference in the world someday.
7) Every little bump in my life, i believe happened for a reason and is the best learning experience.
8) I strongly believe that people can strip you of everything, but they cant take away your education and what you've learned.
9) My job is one of the greatest mysteries to many people.
10) Every Tuesday is Mother/Daughter day.
11) I like guys who have a little fluff to them.
12) Hygiene is very important to me.
13) My favorite color is yellow.
14) I still have a Myspace, but I havent been on it in months...i should go chk it out.
15) I love zombie movies/video games. They're the best!

Behind but trying to get ahead.

Its been a while, I've been in deep thought the past couple of weeks. Checking out different schools and i think I have come to a final decision. As a communications major i really want to make an impact in the world. I really want to work with non-profit orgs. and work with a company that wants to bring change into this world! A difference can be made! Wow, I am 21 years old and just starting to apply for college..this was something that i should have done like 2 years ago or better yet senior year of high school...le sighhhh. It is what it is, i just gots to make the best out of it. Like my mom says, "think happy thoughts".

CAL STATES:
Cal State Pomona
Cal State LA
Cal State Long Beach

OTHERS:
USC
Chapman

Currently in the process of applying to the colleges listed above, please pray that I will get accepted into at least ONE!! (preferably USC)